Striving for Obedience in God's Eyes

The Lord, my heavenly Father has called me to do many things. I feel as though I am at the threshold of entering into His Will for my life. Everything up to this point has been preparation.

I am still in a learning process, we all are, as long as we are on this earth. But the things I am learning now, or fail to learn now, have direct impact on God's Final Plan for my life - the big picture, which I still have trouble seeing sometimes - or maybe it's that I have trouble believing that He wants me to do something so BIG. But I am learning more and more to lean on His strengths and not my own. To do as He says, even if I don't understand why at the time. Which is why I started this blog, God has called me to write - to share what He is teaching me. To share messages He has given me. So here I am, striving for obedience in God's eyes.

This scares me. I am a fairly quiet person, it's not that I am timid, or meek. I am reserved. I like to listen and watch - to figure out how things work before I jump in. Even when I do jump in I have limited words... the only time I am wordy is when I am nervous... or entirely comfortable. I am not a fan of public speaking, or having all the attention on me. Yet God has showed me that this is part of His plan for my life, and I must learn to speak His words to others. I believe this blog is like my boot camp for that - my training.

Welcome to my journey.

I believe words have a weight to them that can often go unaccounted for. I am very aware of this, and for this reason I will start this blog without my usual audience of close friends and family. I may invite them in eventually. But I have learned a lot of lessons in my 27 years in which they are woven into. Some of them have pain and hurt in them, not only for me but for them as well. I do not want want to push them away by forcing my words on them when I know they are not ready to read them... or hear them. I do not want to hamper their faith walk, or deter them from starting one.

So I embark on this journey alone...

Well not totally, I have made some new friends who I hope will share this journey with me.

But you dear stranger, are who these words are meant for.